It is really hard to hit a girl…

It is really hard to hit a girl. If you are hitting her hard then it is still harder. I came to know this fact with my personal experience today. You couldn’t believe RaMo hitting a girl hard right! But it all happened today.

At 9.00am while I was taking my bath, I heard some one opening the main door. I thought it might be one of my room mates and called “Hari…Shekar…” I heard no response. I came out of bathroom and saw main door open. I couldn’t see anyone in the room. I ran out to see who might have opened the door. I could see a girl of age 20+ who was standing in front of my neighbor’s door. When I asked her who she is ... She replied “be… bey…be...” with some signs indicating she couldn’t speak. I couldn’t believe that she was really dumb. She is not just a girl by records; she is a real good looking girl, tall and slim. My neighbour just then came out and gave her Ten rupees.

Suddenly some thing flashed in my mind. I ran into my room and saw my purse, cell phone etc, and found Rs. 380 missing from my purse. I got hold of her and checked her bag. To my surprise I found my 380 rupees and 1,740 rupees… CASH...!!!. She is a THIEF… damn it… I couldn’t stop my hand hitting her on her cheek. After I smashed her, she yelled “Anna.. nannu vodiley anna…”. She was pretending as if she was dumb.

Basti people came running to my room and checked her completely. She was running out of my hand. I couldn’t hold her. When basti women got hold of her, she fell on my feet, caught my legs and started crying… I knew she's acting but felt uncomfortable with her holding my legs (so tight). I could only kick her to get rid of her. Every one was shouting at her. After a long lectures and hits, she was let free with a severe warning.

Thought of taking the rest of the amount and dropping it in a temple hundi. But I did not do that. Any way the thing that’s bugging me is… whom should we sympathize with ... whom should we trust… these questions remain unanswered. Events like these are driving compassion and love for fellow beings away from my heart.

It happens with me. Does it happen with you too?

Why does heart go silent… all of a sudden?
This is what I ask myself after being silent for hours without knowing any reason. Well people say it is “depression” in psychological terms. I don’t know all those terminologies, symptoms, etc. All that I know is… it really hurts a lot.

What is the reason behind that silence?
I tried to find the root causes of it… Few of them are…
Some one very near and dear leaving me (might be for a short period or for a long duration or even a permanent departure)…Some one whom I think close to me is not really close… and the worst part is, the same person being very close to some one else… mmm… it happens with many of us, any way, we can’t force some one to be the same way as we are with him/her. At times even our action and the way we are with some one might hurt him/her. No one is responsible for it… Right!!!
Sometimes it might be because of…
Some thing which I couldn’t achieve as planned…
Some precious thing which I lost…
Some promises which were broken…
Some one misunderstanding me…
Some one cheating me… this list goes on and on.

How do I come out of it?
I don’t know any scientific methods. All I know is when I see the smiling face of a child, have a small chat with my family, receive a phone call from my friend or even a mail (not a forward) pulls me out of it. Hope you got the summary… be in touch. Keep calling and mailing me.

Now tell me about you? What makes you to be off and how do you come out of it?
(Share your thoughts here in comments)

Celebrating…???

One fine morning, some strange noise in our room caught my attention. Two birds were trying to build a nest in our room ventilator. With the view of helping them, we placed a shoebox near the ventilator so that they can build their nest in that.

Next day, we noticed that the two engineers (No Comparison to our engineers), started building their nest. … Not in the shoe box, but the place they chose initially. The nest was built. The male bird would jump around making a lot of noise and the female bird was sitting on its eggs and enjoying its partner’s happiness. Well, they were happy and we were happy watching them.

Dec 31st night, a night to be celebrated, a night to fire crackers, a noisy night. We had a lot of fun in our room.

The New Year morning. My friend woke me up with news… Not a good one. We saw one of the bird’s eggs broken on the floor. And the birds have left the nest. When we checked the nest, we saw one egg in the nest. We thought the birds would come back to the nest for their egg. After a while, we noticed that the male bird came and started disturbing the nest and threw the other egg down. What could have gone wrong? Was it the loss of one egg that shattered the bird? No idea!!!

My perspective of this incident is that, the noise on the 31st night must have scared the birds and in that confusion one of them must have dropped the egg.

This incident made me realize one thing. One’s happiness might be a misery for others. Should our happiness be at the cost of other’s happiness???